4 Minahal ni Bestfriend : Desperado part 6

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4 Minahal ni Bestfriend : Desperado part 5

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              Pangatlo, ay gusto ko pasalamatan ang aking Bembem ko na laging andyan para sa akin all the way! Kay MIMI RAGE na syang gumawa ng cover, Kay Jojie,  at kay Erwin F. Syempre po kay --makki--,demure, ivan d., MaRIOnE, jemryo,mc ern james, Tommy,J, iamronald, cuirous19,youcancallmeJM, Roan,anton, kyle from clark, ANDY, robertmendoza94@yahoo.com, _rayne, Riley, Jeh (Thanks uli!), Rovi Yuno, j20green, Heaven, j.v, erion, price arl, Mark Jayson Pionela, Judaskyle13, JD Javra,Jasper, ZROM60, kapitanismo, Eiji_monster, =dereck=, Riley, Chris, Lei, arvie04,John Gino Basinang, Red of Singapore, Josue Altoveros, Nico, kean tongol, ryan lee, Anthon Gonzales, Edward, Christian, arljhay, hula_boy, 21, totix, erickvladd, calvin, PIP, J, -London-, Down D. Line, ,Mel Gibson, jrvr, vinz_uan, mon, Queckenstedt, kean tongol, Atsea, Bonzai, ryan lee, -rob-, IAN, JM MJ, Jay-Ar, robert, Ryvis Tan, vincent28, Jhumer Andres, shane, Nico, Bonzai, dhyames, wexersz_15, Ras, EUS, Iamrex, LordPauldemort, itsmethirdy, ryan lee, shane, Jhumer Andres, Hiya!, Jay-ar, renxz, pangz, jaymefrompalawan, Ryvis Tan, jamespott, Rez of Bacolod, Silent_al, ariel loniga, jheyjhey javier, maybe, g, patryckjr, Enrique, iRead,wil, jae.jae, RGEEE, Jim of Pangasinan, xheanne, eric sioson, Cloyd, LEI, Moon Sung-Min, meloh, _june_, JD Javra, d^,^b camotes \m/hunk, nam, itsmethirdy, =jess=, Marcanthony, knight_in_shining_armor(hehehe), nam, Danielle, alejojohn, _unspoken_words_, akosijames, Nicholadia, Enrique, lloydie, LemLem, Jayar, Nico, Unknown, Aldrin, , _alelojohn, Dada Marcelo, cris bautista, Malachimark, -erickboi-, Yoshi, Karl rickson, online via ginno, Nikko Ramos, toffer lopez, Prince Pao, ALex, ja, kris, ramzter, Jm_virgin2009, Marlone, edrich of cebu, Archivald, russ, Mars, foxriver, Burj of Abu Dhabi, maybe, pd, mykel22, ampugeh, mark5337, ALDRIN, Al, brenthotz18, toffer lopez, Prince Pao, MarcAnthony, - marcus -, Nikko Ramos, Rands of QC, harry, alex, .paisano, jay.19.bi, Pancookie, cris bautista, Bri, Alexis Gacayan, Paolo Escaba, tj, nikk, eric sioson, -rom-, shingha, Mr.handsome, Mac, nivz, MP of Pasig, ilyrars, erik, .lordsun pogie, Enzo12, Tnito Schrugs, aeigh27 of binan laguna, cris bautista, JC SHIN, marlboro, monty, cazlhers@yahoo.com, fixboy, jay Tagaro, kris, Keanu Reeves, Marky, -rom-, foxriver, diumar, P.Y.S.H, edrich of cebu, bon-bon, Gerald, dhenxo (UTOL!!), kira, Uri_KiDo, Arnold Lachica, iamfree, chadie, IgnorantengFrog, ericka, em_bie24, , arvin of Taiwan, nikk, A L P O, rain, shingha, pein_kyoya, Gian, Enzo12, MIMI RAGE, Brent Angelo, Lawfer, Levin, Ramm, razhly, luilao, kajiki_anton, Jerwin Caraang, slushe.love, Jamespott, pein_kyoya, monja, paul ni joseph ponce, iamdarkdreamer, trutsofme, 12334, Paopi Lopez, dyasper dyokson, Rj, Bequillo, jhexter vhon, Redrockerz, Jamespott, cheryllee, Kimpoy Feliciano, Yrec, Karl Ricson, kierlynez, jon888, archerangel, Cholo Sevilla, ramzter, cy, ian of k.s.a, krisluv, dro, allen mark, manuel, franklin alviola, sora cesar aloner, justine of QATAR, cap, vash18, ramy from qatar, hot_andrew_21, derek ramsey, Jm Fab, ARSTEVE, edward_cavite, g, jhayc, jaycee mejica, kiero143, MorLuck, Tagadxb, Charo Santos, Choy Sevilla, Chris Evans, PauuulFabian, Pao, Ayen, Lee, Toffer(charmedboy09), anita baker, -kiss-, lm_rix, jhay ar tabz, Saykz, hajji alivio, ryval winston, jaycee mejica, Leowenstein, nashdane, Manuel, Louis, Dylan of Jeddah, carlo lovendino, ireneomercado, LeonardCruzL@yahoo.com, johnjamesjohn, eelkahr, hormy, manila_sex_actor,DyEyD, carlo lovendino, Yhno, alphongx, zapfyre_01, -Dylan-, jumpin rooftops, Coffee Prince, KYLE DEXTER RIVERA, Dante Espinosa, Mon Tee, Lexin, PIP, akosichristian, rc, Vice Ganda, dylan of jeddah, Kierl Ynez, ireneomercado, MICO,  cef, Jordan Rey, -john el-, juanes, rascal, Acnologia, YUME, yahiko, =KierBurry=, Izteepen, -mans-, alfredo eufemio, twilightminds, gian, London, Francis Louigie Aviso, jii, LeonardCruzL@yahoo.com, Vintoy122092, A D A N, giantantrum, popoy, jayemx57, ziedrick garcia, XxXjinXxx, devi, dee azrael, iamkljan, at kay Kuya Mike. At syempre sa mga anonymous at silent readers po. :) At syempre po sa mga friends natin sa fb.


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One More Chance - 11

As I write this new chapter, I was surprised to receive a private message from our BOL moderator Alpo. He sent me a screen-shot of a message from a new reader in BOL named Zeal.09. I really am glad to know that there are new readers who find my novels interesting and good. To you zeal.09, thank you for taking time to read my stories posted in BOL. That 11th Commandment, Father Jerry Orbos should take all the credit. I learned it from him. :)

And on that note, I would like to present you, the newest Chapter of this story. Please don't be confused. Supposedly, this is Chapter 12 but as I've said in BOL, I combined chapters 8 and 9 to make it as one. So here... enjoy and sail with me as we uncover the new chapters in Basty and Popoy's lives.

-Dalisay


Chapter 11

Nagising siyang mabigat ang pakiramdam. Pati ang kanyang biglang pagdilat ay naantala ng masilaw ng maliwanag na sikat ng araw na nagmumula sa bintana. Madiin siyang pumikit ng maramdaman ang matinding pagkahilo.

Hinilot niya ang sentido. Mukhang marami siyang nainom ng nagdaang gabi. Muli siyang nagdilat at sinalubong ang kanyang mga mata ng kulay-kremang kisame.

Parang may mali?

Pumikit siyang muli para lamang muling mapadilat nang mapagtantong wala siya sa sariling silid.

Agad ang pagbangon na sana'y gagawin niya ng pigilan siya ng isang mabigat na bagay. Nanlaki ang kanyang mga mata ng makita niyang braso iyon ng isang lalaki!

Oh my God!

Unti-unti niyang nilingon kung sino ang pangahas na may-ari niyon. He got the shock of his life when he saw Gabe on his side.

Shit!

Mabilis niyang tinanggal ang kamay nito na nakapalibot sa kanyang baywang only to find out that the guy in question was already awake.

"Good morning, 'Poy..." It was said in a very husky voice.

Iginala niya ang paningin. It was not his room and the idea made him guilty for a while. Flashes of good morning memories flooded his mind. But of course, with a different person.

Basty...

Napabalikwas siya ng tayo and he found out the he was wearing only his boxers.

Nasaan ang mga damit ko?

Agad na binalot ng lamig ang kanyang buong pagkatao. Hindi dahil sa fully air-conditioned ang buong silid kundi sa posibilidad na maaaring may nangyari sa kanilang dalawa ni Gabe.

"D-did s-something happen?" he said stuttering.

"Hmm...?"

Iyon lang ang sagot na narinig niya mula kay Gabe. Tinitigan niya ito. Nakadapa ito and half of his face was burrowed in the pillow showing him a perfect chiseled jaw.

Bumaba ng kaunti ang tingin niya sa likod nitong namumutok sa muscles. He was naked from waist-up.

Ang kumot na tumatakip sa pang-upo nito ay hindi sapat para ikubli kung gaano kaganda ang pagkakakurba niyon.

Napalunok siya.

Pinakiramdaman ang sarili.

Wala namang mali sa katawan niya. He was not sore or anything but he was still confused. Why is he wearing only his boxers and why is Gabe with him, on his bed, half-naked and slept with him the whole night! He figured it was his room when he saw pictures of him on the side-table.

"G-gabe..." he said almost in a whisper.

"Hmm...?" Gabe replied.

"I asked you a question. "M-may nangyari b-ba?"

Nagdilat ito. He was welcomed by those sleepy eyes. Napalunok siya. Pakiramdam niya ay tuyong-tuyo siya.

Unti-unti ang pagbangon na ginawa ni Gabe. Slowly too, his eyes were filled with a very gorgeous sight. Perfect washboard abs. Broad shoulders. Broad chest. All built to perfection. He shivered from the thought of what might have happened last night. Pilit niyang inaalala ang mga pangyayari ngunit ang tanging naaalala niya ay ang mainit nilang halikan sa loob ng kotse nito.

Akala niya ay tatayo na ito ngunit nanatili itong nakaupo ng patagilid paharap sa kanya. Nagulat pa siya ng magsalita ito.

"Take away that shocked expression on your face, Popoy. Nothing happened last night maliban sa tinulugan mo ako sa kotse," Gabe said in amusement.

Napatingin siya rito.

"A-are you sure?" he asked stupidly.

"Damn sure, 'Poy. You were kissing me so hot the next thing I knew you were sleeping," puno ng pang-aasar na sabi pa ni Gabe. Subalit hindi nakaligtas sa kanyang pandinig ang panghihinayang na nasa boses nito na pilit itinatago ng mapang-asar na ngiti.

Napabuga siya. It was only then that he realized he was holding his breath. Ang kaalamang walang nangyari sa kanilang dalawa ni Gabe ay nakapagpalubag ng kanyang kalooban.

Pinilit niyang ngumiti.

"I thought you ravished me or something." he asked nervously. He coated the nervousness with a fake laughter to hide his uneasiness. Pasimple pa niyang hinanap ang kanyang mga damit.

"Nasa laundry ang mga damit mo. Ida-dryer ko na lang para agad matuyo. Nagsuka ka kasi," ani Gabe na agad nagpapula ng kanyang mukha. Mukhang nabasa pa nito ang nasa isip niya.

"H-hindi nga? Nagkalat ba ako?"

Ngumiti ito ng pagkatamis-tamis. Showing him a complete set of white teeth. Kung sa ibang pagkakataon sana ay kikiligin siya sa mga nakikita niya at magiging instant ang reaksiyon ng katawan niya sa nakakatakam na "view" sa harapan niya ngunit nananatiling walang reaksyon ang ibabang bahagi niya.

"Hindi naman. Nakalabas na tayo sa kotse ng magsuka ka. Ihahatid na lang sana kita sa inyo, but on second thought. I wouldn't miss the chance of having the person I love on my bed and stare on his face when I wake up."

The declaration of love rendered him speechless. Hindi dahil sa kinilig siya sa mga sinabi nito. Hindi niya lang kasi alam ang tamang itutugon sa mga salitang iyon.

"You don't have to say anything just to please me, Popoy. Although I just said I loved you but that doesn't mean that you are required to say it too."

He was taken aback. Lahat na lang ng nasa isip niya nababasa nito. Was he that transparent? Or sobra lang obvious sa mukha niya na hindi niya alam ang isasagot to the point na nagmumukha na siyang tanga.

"A-are you sure nothing happened?" ang tanging naisagot niya.

Natawa si Gabe sa tinuran niya.

"Ang kulit mo. Even if I wanted to, making love with you is not possible when you're all wasted. Ang bigat mo kaya. And besides, I don't ravish drunk men. Greek he may be."

Napatango-tango na lang siya at iginala ang paningin for the nth time sa buong silid. It has a comfortable feeling. Lalaking-lalaki ang dating yet may hatid ng pagiging homey. Napatingin siya sa bintana. The view was fantastic. It was facing the mountains na hindi niya inakalang mayroon sa bahaging iyon ng bansa.

"Anong bundok iyon?" tanong niya kay Gabe. Taktika niya iyon para i-divert ang usapan mula sa kakatapos lang na paglalahad nito. Pasimple rin siyang naglakad papunta sa glass-windows to complete the act.

"Iyan ba? Antipolo Mountains yan. Narito tayo sa condo ko."

"Ahh..." Iyon lang ang naibulalas niya sa kawalan ng masabi.

Nag-iisip pa siya ng mga sasabihin para mayroong mapag-usapan ng maramdaman niya ang mainit na braso ni Gabe sa kanyang hubad na katawan.

Napasinghap siya ng maramdaman ang mainit nitong paghinga sa kanyang batok although ang talagang nagpatigas sa kanyang katawan ay ang matigas na bagay na tumutusok sa bandang puwitan niya! Mabuti na lang at naka-boxers din itong tulad niya.

"G-gabe! What are you doing!" naeeskandalong sabi niya. Tinangka niyang tanggalin ang pangahas na braso nito sa katawan niya but he was locked tightly in Gabe's arms.

"I'm seducing you, Popoy." he said huskily in between nudging his thighs from the back just so he could feel the raging maleness behind him.

"What?"

"Don't be a prude. Kagabi lang ay sobra ka kung makapag-aya at makipaghalikan sa akin tapos tatanungin mo ako kung ano ang ginagawa ko? I'm just finishing what we have started. Don't tell me you're having a cold feet now, are you?"

Napasinghap siyang muli ng marahas siyang kabigin nito paharap. Wala siyang makita kundi ang kongkretong ebidensiya ng pagnanasa sa mga mata nito.

"Don't you have any idea how hot you looked in the morning?"

Nanlaki ang mata niya sa narinig. Narinig na niya ang mga salitang iyon dati. Paulit-ulit. Sa condo nila ni Basty.

"G-gabe..."

Siguro ay naipagkamali nito ang kanyang sinabi bilang hudyat na okay lang sa kanya ang advances na ginagawa nito kaya naman tinawid nito ang distansiya sa pagitan ng kanilang mga labi. But he kept his mouth sealed.

"Don't fight, Popoy. Let me in."

Gabe showered his face with butterfly kisses. Damang-dama niya ang init sa hininga nito. He was breathing raggedly that it brought him discomfort. Nahigit pa niya ang paghinga ng maglandas ang kamay nito sa tagiliran niya kung saan grabe ang kiliti niya. Sinamantala iyon ni Gabe at muling sinakop ang kanyang labi.

He tried to return his kisses with the same passion but he failed miserably. Something is missing from Gabe's kisses that he could not fathom. Alam niyang mali ngunit hindi niya maiwasang magkumpara.

Ngayon lang nagsink-in sa kanya na kanina pa siya parang tuod sa harapan nito. Oo, nakikipaghalikan siya ngunit ang isip niya ay nasa iba. In fact, alam niya kung saan ito naroroon. Kasama na roon ang kanyang puso. Kaya naman hindi na siya nagtaka ng itigil nito ang ginagawa. Pinakawalan din siya nito. He was sure Gabe felt the reluctance on his part.

"Basty is such a lucky bastard." Napapalatak na sabi ni Gabe.

Napayuko siya.

Mukhang guilty.

Nasa ganoong disposisyon siya ng hawakan nito ang kanyang baba at iniangat ang kanyang mukha.

"Please... don't be guilty."

There he was again. Reading his mind from time to time. He's starting to believe that this guy is way beyond his caliber. Malakas masyado ang pakiramdam nito. Pati ang appeal. Hindi nga lang iyon umeepekto sa kanya.

"I'm s-so..."

"Sssh... Lalo mo lang akong sasaktan kapag itinuloy mo iyan. I know. Hindi ka pa handa. Sabi ko naman sa'yo, willing akong maghintay. Willing akong magpagamit. Hanggang sa dumating ang pagkakataon na wala na siya sa puso at isipan mo," madamdaming sabi ni Gabe.

Nanghihinang napatingin siya rito.

"Huwag mo akong alalahanin. Alam kong malakas ang kalaban ko. Ten years iyon. Ano bang panama ko? Pero sana, bigyan mo rin ng pagkakataon ang sarili mo na buksan ang puso mo sa ibang tao. May iba na siya. At mayroon kang isang katulad ko na handang magtiis at maghintay sa pagkakataong masasabi mo na sa sarili mong ready ka ng magmahal ulit."

He felt like crying.

Nananakit ang lalamunan niya sa pagpipigil ng hikbing nagbabantang lumabas mula roon anumang oras. If only he could teach his heart to love this guy. He's sure that he will be an awesome lover. A generous one. For Gabe was willing to give him everything that the world has to offer.

"Gabe..." halos wala siyang masabi kundi ang pangalan nito.

Ngumiti ito ngunit hindi umabot sa mga mata. Ramdam niya ang sakit na nararamdaman nito. Parehas lang sila. Parehong naghihintay na mahalin ng mga mahal nila.

Sa kaso niya, hinihintay niyang magmilagro na magkabalikan sila ni Basty.

Sa kaso nito, hinihintay nitong makapagmove-on na siya sa dating nobyo.

It was unfair for Gabe.

But it would be more unfair kapag pinilit niyang mahalin ito dahil lamang gusto niyang kalimutan na ng tuluyan si Basty.

Doon siya nakapagisip-isip. Kailangan niyang makausap si Basty. He needed closure. The last time that they talked, everything turned-out to be a mess. This time, he had to make sure that they were on equal grounds.

Hindi na siya manunumbat. Hindi na rin siya magmumukhang kawawa. Kung anuman ang kalalabasan ng magiging pag-uusap nila, ang bukas na ang bahala.

For the meantime, kailangan niyang bumawi sa pananakit kay Gabe. Wala itong ipinakitang masama sa kanya. He don't deserve an asshole like him kaya naman sisiguruhin niyang the best lang ang mga bagay na makukuha nito mula sa kanya.

Popoy smiled. Then he said,

"Halika. Gutom na ako. Patuyuin na rin natin ang mga damit ko," yaya niya rito.

He earned a smile from Gabe.

Inakbayan siya nito at iginiya palabas ng kwarto.

He put his head on Gabe's shoulder then looked at him as they went across the living room then he mouthed.

"Thank you."

Gabe replied with a sweet kiss on his forehead.

Itutuloy...    

4 Minahal ni Bestfriend : Desperado part 4

            Kamusta po sa inyong lahat?! ^_^

            Ayan, una, meron po akong surprise sa inyong lahat. Kaso pagpasensyahan nyo na ang nakayanan ng aking abilidad. Wag sana ako mahusgahan. Hahahaha. Anyway, its for you guys! ^_^

            Pangalawa, ay gusto ko humingi ng pabor. Hahaha! Pa follow naman po ng blog.. Heheheh. Sige na :P Hahaha!! And nga pala guys, you can add me up on fb pa din. We have a growing community sa fb and I hope ay i-add nyo ko ng mai-add ko din kayo sa ating group. We will be having events soon so sana sumali po kayo. :) Ito po ang link ng aking fb acct. :)  http://www.facebook.com/kenji.bem.oya PAKIUSAP lang po na magpakilala lang kayo upon adding para ma add ko na kayo agad sa group :) Thanks!! So.. ito na!!

              Pangatlo, ay gusto ko pasalamatan ang aking Bembem ko na laging andyan para sa akin all the way! Kay MIMI RAGE na syang gumawa ng cover, Kay Jojie,  at kay Erwin F. Syempre po kay --makki--,demure, ivan d., MaRIOnE, jemryo,mc ern james, Tommy,J, iamronald, cuirous19,youcancallmeJM, Roan,anton, kyle from clark, ANDY, robertmendoza94@yahoo.com, _rayne, Riley, Jeh (Thanks uli!), Rovi Yuno, j20green, Heaven, j.v, erion, price arl, Mark Jayson Pionela, Judaskyle13, JD Javra,Jasper, ZROM60, kapitanismo, Eiji_monster, =dereck=, Riley, Chris, Lei, arvie04,John Gino Basinang, Red of Singapore, Josue Altoveros, Nico, kean tongol, ryan lee, Anthon Gonzales, Edward, Christian, arljhay, hula_boy, 21, totix, erickvladd, calvin, PIP, J, -London-, Down D. Line, ,Mel Gibson, jrvr, vinz_uan, mon, Queckenstedt, kean tongol, Atsea, Bonzai, ryan lee, -rob-, IAN, JM MJ, Jay-Ar, robert, Ryvis Tan, vincent28, Jhumer Andres, shane, Nico, Bonzai, dhyames, wexersz_15, Ras, EUS, Iamrex, LordPauldemort, itsmethirdy, ryan lee, shane, Jhumer Andres, Hiya!, Jay-ar, renxz, pangz, jaymefrompalawan, Ryvis Tan, jamespott, Rez of Bacolod, Silent_al, ariel loniga, jheyjhey javier, maybe, g, patryckjr, Enrique, iRead,wil, jae.jae, RGEEE, Jim of Pangasinan, xheanne, eric sioson, Cloyd, LEI, Moon Sung-Min, meloh, _june_, JD Javra, d^,^b camotes \m/hunk, nam, itsmethirdy, =jess=, Marcanthony, knight_in_shining_armor(hehehe), nam, Danielle, alejojohn, _unspoken_words_, akosijames, Nicholadia, Enrique, lloydie, LemLem, Jayar, Nico, Unknown, Aldrin, , _alelojohn, Dada Marcelo, cris bautista, Malachimark, -erickboi-, Yoshi, Karl rickson, online via ginno, Nikko Ramos, toffer lopez, Prince Pao, ALex, ja, kris, ramzter, Jm_virgin2009, Marlone, edrich of cebu, Archivald, russ, Mars, foxriver, Burj of Abu Dhabi, maybe, pd, mykel22, ampugeh, mark5337, ALDRIN, Al, brenthotz18, toffer lopez, Prince Pao, MarcAnthony, - marcus -, Nikko Ramos, Rands of QC, harry, alex, .paisano, jay.19.bi, Pancookie, cris bautista, Bri, Alexis Gacayan, Paolo Escaba, tj, nikk, eric sioson, -rom-, shingha, Mr.handsome, Mac, nivz, MP of Pasig, ilyrars, erik, .lordsun pogie, Enzo12, Tnito Schrugs, aeigh27 of binan laguna, cris bautista, JC SHIN, marlboro, monty, cazlhers@yahoo.com, fixboy, jay Tagaro, kris, Keanu Reeves, Marky, -rom-, foxriver, diumar, P.Y.S.H, edrich of cebu, bon-bon, Gerald, dhenxo (UTOL!!), kira, Uri_KiDo, Arnold Lachica, iamfree, chadie, IgnorantengFrog, ericka, em_bie24, , arvin of Taiwan, nikk, A L P O, rain, shingha, pein_kyoya, Gian, Enzo12, MIMI RAGE, Brent Angelo, Lawfer, Levin, Ramm, razhly, luilao, kajiki_anton, Jerwin Caraang, slushe.love, Jamespott, pein_kyoya, monja, paul ni joseph ponce, iamdarkdreamer, trutsofme, 12334, Paopi Lopez, dyasper dyokson, Rj, Bequillo, jhexter vhon, Redrockerz, Jamespott, cheryllee, Kimpoy Feliciano, Yrec, Karl Ricson, kierlynez, jon888, archerangel, Cholo Sevilla, ramzter, cy, ian of k.s.a, krisluv, dro, allen mark, manuel, franklin alviola, sora cesar aloner, justine of QATAR, cap, vash18, ramy from qatar, hot_andrew_21, derek ramsey, Jm Fab, ARSTEVE, edward_cavite, g, jhayc, jaycee mejica, kiero143, MorLuck, Tagadxb, Charo Santos, Choy Sevilla, Chris Evans, PauuulFabian, Pao, Ayen, Lee, Toffer(charmedboy09), anita baker, -kiss-, lm_rix, jhay ar tabz, Saykz, hajji alivio, ryval winston, jaycee mejica, Leowenstein, nashdane, Manuel, Louis, Dylan of Jeddah, carlo lovendino, ireneomercado, LeonardCruzL@yahoo.com, johnjamesjohn, eelkahr, hormy, manila_sex_actor,DyEyD, carlo lovendino, Yhno, alphongx, zapfyre_01, -Dylan-, jumpin rooftops, Coffee Prince, KYLE DEXTER RIVERA, Dante Espinosa, Mon Tee, Lexin, PIP, akosichristian, rc, Vice Ganda, dylan of jeddah, Kierl Ynez, ireneomercado, MICO,  cef, Jordan Rey, -john el-, juanes, rascal, Acnologia, YUME, yahiko, =KierBurry=, Izteepen, -mans-, alfredo eufemio, twilightminds, gian, London, Francis Louigie Aviso, jii, LeonardCruzL@yahoo.com, Vintoy122092, A D A N, giantantrum, popoy, jayemx57, ziedrick garcia, XxXjinXxx, at kay Kuya Mike. At syempre sa mga anonymous at silent readers po. :) At syempre po sa mga friends natin sa fb.


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Perfect

            It’s our imperfection that makes us human.

But have you ever thought about the feeling of being perfect? Yung tipong wala kang kapintasan? Walang masasabi na kahit ano ang mga tao sa iyo? Na tipong pag tiningnan ka nila ay matutulala lang sila?

            Well, I guess you will envy me.

            Hindi sa pagmamayabang but I know I’m perfect. My flawless skin, lean, sexy body that everyone is dying for. I have em all.

            And isa pang ikakaiinggit mo sa akin? I have everything you could only dream of. Nice clothes, shoes, everything.

            Malamang naiinis ka sa pagkayabang ko. Pero what makes you think I care? Wala akong pakialam sa mga nararamdaman ng nasa paligid ko. I stand tall wearing clothes that you are dying for. I also have set of jewelries and accessories na hanggang sa pangarap mo lang mabibili.

But then again, sa akin? Meron ako nyan.

            Envy me? Sue me!

            People pass by and would always stare on how I look. And there, I proudly show off myself. I stand tall habang nakatingin sa kawalan kahit alam kong nakatitig ang karamihan. I can even see you staring at me sometimes.

Dedma.

I get to experience ang buhay na comparable sa mga gods.. Dahil sa sobrang pagkaperpekto ko, kahit tagalinis ng katawan ko ay meron ako. I don’t do it on my own. People are paid para lang linisan at pati bihisan ako. Yes, even to the last clothing na meron ako ay may tagahubad at suot ako. At lahat ng gumawa nito, napahanga lang talaga sa katawan ko. Sabi ko nga, I’m perfect.

Did I mention na perfect ako? Huh?! I did? Para kasing kulang pa!

“Nobody’s perfect.”, madalas kong marinig sa mga taong humahanga sa akin. Pero muli, Dedma. Inggit lang kayo!

Dedma dahil manhid ako at walang pakiramdam.

It’s our imperfection that makes us human.

Kaya nga  perfect ako.

Those rules don’t apply to me.

After all..

I’m a mannequin.

4 Minahal ni Bestfriend : Desperado part 3

             Kamusta po sa inyong lahat? ^_^

             I know, tumatagal ang posting ko. Pagpasensyahan nyo na lang po.. Hehehehe..

             Pangalawa, ay gusto ko humingi ng pabor. Hahaha! Pa follow naman po ng blog.. Heheheh. Sige na :P Hahaha!! And nga pala guys, you can add me up on fb pa din. We have a growing community sa fb and I hope ay i-add nyo ko ng mai-add ko din kayo sa ating group. We will be having events soon so sana sumali po kayo. :) Ito po ang link ng aking fb acct. :)  http://www.facebook.com/kenji.bem.oya PAKIUSAP lang po na magpakilala lang kayo upon adding para ma add ko na kayo agad sa group :) Thanks!! So.. ito na!!

              Pangatlo, ay gusto ko pasalamatan ang aking Bembem ko na laging andyan para sa akin all the way! Kay MIMI RAGE na syang gumawa ng cover, Kay Jojie,  at kay Erwin F. Syempre po kay --makki--,demure, ivan d., MaRIOnE, jemryo,mc ern james, Tommy,J, iamronald, cuirous19,youcancallmeJM, Roan,anton, kyle from clark, ANDY, robertmendoza94@yahoo.com, _rayne, Riley, Jeh (Thanks uli!), Rovi Yuno, j20green, Heaven, j.v, erion, price arl, Mark Jayson Pionela, Judaskyle13, JD Javra,Jasper, ZROM60, kapitanismo, Eiji_monster, =dereck=, Riley, Chris, Lei, arvie04,John Gino Basinang, Red of Singapore, Josue Altoveros, Nico, kean tongol, ryan lee, Anthon Gonzales, Edward, Christian, arljhay, hula_boy, 21, totix, erickvladd, calvin, PIP, J, -London-, Down D. Line, ,Mel Gibson, jrvr, vinz_uan, mon, Queckenstedt, kean tongol, Atsea, Bonzai, ryan lee, -rob-, IAN, JM MJ, Jay-Ar, robert, Ryvis Tan, vincent28, Jhumer Andres, shane, Nico, Bonzai, dhyames, wexersz_15, Ras, EUS, Iamrex, LordPauldemort, itsmethirdy, ryan lee, shane, Jhumer Andres, Hiya!, Jay-ar, renxz, pangz, jaymefrompalawan, Ryvis Tan, jamespott, Rez of Bacolod, Silent_al, ariel loniga, jheyjhey javier, maybe, g, patryckjr, Enrique, iRead,wil, jae.jae, RGEEE, Jim of Pangasinan, xheanne, eric sioson, Cloyd, LEI, Moon Sung-Min, meloh, _june_, JD Javra, d^,^b camotes \m/hunk, nam, itsmethirdy, =jess=, Marcanthony, knight_in_shining_armor(hehehe), nam, Danielle, alejojohn, _unspoken_words_, akosijames, Nicholadia, Enrique, lloydie, LemLem, Jayar, Nico, Unknown, Aldrin, , _alelojohn, Dada Marcelo, cris bautista, Malachimark, -erickboi-, Yoshi, Karl rickson, online via ginno, Nikko Ramos, toffer lopez, Prince Pao, ALex, ja, kris, ramzter, Jm_virgin2009, Marlone, edrich of cebu, Archivald, russ, Mars, foxriver, Burj of Abu Dhabi, maybe, pd, mykel22, ampugeh, mark5337, ALDRIN, Al, brenthotz18, toffer lopez, Prince Pao, MarcAnthony, - marcus -, Nikko Ramos, Rands of QC, harry, alex, .paisano, jay.19.bi, Pancookie, cris bautista, Bri, Alexis Gacayan, Paolo Escaba, tj, nikk, eric sioson, -rom-, shingha, Mr.handsome, Mac, nivz, MP of Pasig, ilyrars, erik, .lordsun pogie, Enzo12, Tnito Schrugs, aeigh27 of binan laguna, cris bautista, JC SHIN, marlboro, monty, cazlhers@yahoo.com, fixboy, jay Tagaro, kris, Keanu Reeves, Marky, -rom-, foxriver, diumar, P.Y.S.H, edrich of cebu, bon-bon, Gerald, dhenxo (UTOL!!), kira, Uri_KiDo, Arnold Lachica, iamfree, chadie, IgnorantengFrog, ericka, em_bie24, , arvin of Taiwan, nikk, A L P O, rain, shingha, pein_kyoya, Gian, Enzo12, MIMI RAGE, Brent Angelo, Lawfer, Levin, Ramm, razhly, luilao, kajiki_anton, Jerwin Caraang, slushe.love, Jamespott, pein_kyoya, monja, paul ni joseph ponce, iamdarkdreamer, trutsofme, 12334, Paopi Lopez, dyasper dyokson, Rj, Bequillo, jhexter vhon, Redrockerz, Jamespott, cheryllee, Kimpoy Feliciano, Yrec, Karl Ricson, kierlynez, jon888, archerangel, Cholo Sevilla, ramzter, cy, ian of k.s.a, krisluv, dro, allen mark, manuel, franklin alviola, sora cesar aloner, justine of QATAR, cap, vash18, ramy from qatar, hot_andrew_21, derek ramsey, Jm Fab, ARSTEVE, edward_cavite, g, jhayc, jaycee mejica, kiero143, MorLuck, Tagadxb, Charo Santos, Choy Sevilla, Chris Evans, PauuulFabian, Pao, Ayen, Lee, Toffer(charmedboy09), anita baker, -kiss-, lm_rix, jhay ar tabz, Saykz, hajji alivio, ryval winston, jaycee mejica, Leowenstein, nashdane, Manuel, Louis, Dylan of Jeddah, carlo lovendino, ireneomercado, LeonardCruzL@yahoo.com, johnjamesjohn, eelkahr, hormy, manila_sex_actor,DyEyD, carlo lovendino, Yhno, alphongx, zapfyre_01, -Dylan-, jumpin rooftops, Coffee Prince, KYLE DEXTER RIVERA, Dante Espinosa, Mon Tee, Lexin, PIP, akosichristian, rc, Vice Ganda, dylan of jeddah, Kierl Ynez, ireneomercado, MICO,  cef, Jordan Rey, -john el-, juanes, rascal, Acnologia, YUME, yahiko, =KierBurry=, Izteepen, -mans-, alfredo eufemio, twilightminds, gian, London, Francis Louigie Aviso, jii, LeonardCruzL@yahoo.com, Vintoy122092, A D A N, giantantrum, popoy, at kay Kuya Mike. At syempre sa mga anonymous at silent readers po. :) At syempre po sa mga friends natin sa fb.


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Huling Paalam

Hi guys,


Heto po halloween special ko para sa ating lahat. Aheheheheh. Ewan ko pero sana magustuhan niyo. Nga pala, regalo ko ito sa inyo ngayong kaarawan ko. :) Maraming salamat sa inyo.


Lovelots,


dhenxo :))


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Kitang kita ko ang mumunting butil ng luha na lumalabas sa magkabilaan mong mga mata. Nagkamali ako pero hindi ko na maibabalik pa ang mga panahong iyon. Gusto ko mang bumawi pero huli na ang lahat. Nahihirapan ako sa nakikita ko sa’yo. Labis ang aking pagsisisi.


<i>Hindi mo ako deserve. Maghanap ka na ng iba. Malaya ka na. Paulit-ulit na sambit ko sa aking sarili. Wala akong lakas ng loob na isatinig iyon.</i>


“Mahal na mahal kita Gino.”


<i>Ako din Riko. Sobrang mahal na mahal pero kailangan mo na akong kalimutan.</i>


“Bakit mo ginagawa sa akin ito?” tanong mo na may pagka-garalgal ang boses.


Napayuko ako.


“Alam mo bang nasasaktan ako. Tingnan mo ako!” may kalakasan mong tinig habang patuloy ka sa pagtangis.


Napaangat ako ng mukha.


Bakas na bakas ko ang hirap, sakit at lungkot sa iyong mukha lalong lalo na sa mga mata mo. Napatingin din ako sa mga tao sa paligid at lahat sila ay may nagtataka’t malulungkot na titig. Lahat sila nakatingin sa ating dalawa.


“Sabi mo mahal na mahal mo ako pero kabaligtaran yung ginagawa mo sa akin. Hindi ko maramdaman pagmamahal mo.”


<i>Sorry kung hindi ko naibabalik sa’yo iyong pagmamahal na hinihingi mo. Alam ko napakawalang kuwenta kong boyfriend kasi imbes na pasayahin kita, heto, pinapaiyak ka.</i>


“Naalala mo pa ba paano tayo nagkakilala?”


Pilit ko namang inaalala.


“Hindi mo na siguro naaalala pero sige ikukuwento ko.” Dumukot ka bigla ng panyo at pinunasan mo iyong mukha mo.


“Bestfriend ko iyong girlfriend mo noon. Tapos magkasama kayong sumundo sa akin sa airport galing probinsiya. Alam mo ba na unang kita ko pa lang sa’yo noon gusto na kita? Kaso off limits ka na eh.” Bahagya kang natawa sa nasabi mo, ako nama’y napangiti.


Maliwanag pa sa akin lahat ng iyon at sa tuwing naaalala ko iyon ay napapangiti talaga ako. Mukha ka kasing haggard nun eh. Nakita ko naman na lumapit siya sa tabi mo.


“Alam mo bang ramdam kong may gusto sa iyo itong bestfriend ko? At ng mga panahong iyon, I’m falling out of love na, nagiging dragging na kasi iyong relationship natin.” Sambit niya.


Nakaramdam ako ng bahagyang lungkot ng maalala ko ang tagpong nakikipaghiwalay ka na sa akin. Napakasakit niyon sa akin dahil labis ko siyang minahal. Naputol lang ako ng muli kang nagsalita.


 “Tapos ikaw pa bumuhat ng mga gamit ko. Feeling babae ako nun. At talagang hinatid niyo ako sa tutuluyan ko. Sobra kong na-appreciate iyon. Simula noong araw na iyon lagi niyo na akong sinasamang dalawa. May mga times pa na tayong dalawa lang ang lumalabas.”


“At feeling nitong si Riko, nagde-date kayo.”


Pinamulahan kang bigla. Napangiti na naman ako. Gustong gusto kong nakikita kang nagba-blush kasi doon ko nararamdaman na mahal mo ako.


“At noong nag-break tayo alam kong si Riko ang tumulong sa’yo. Alam mo ba, isang malaking favour iyong binigay ko para sa inyong dalawa.”


Napatingin kami pareho ni Riko sa kanya.


“Totoo naman ah kasi kung hindi ko ginawa iyon di sana hindi kayo nagkaaminan na may nararamdaman kayo sa isa’t isa. Ako pa ang naging tulay niyong dalawa.” Kita ko na masaya siya sa mga sinasabi niya.


<i>Tama ka. Salamat Angie. Hulog ka ng langit samin.</i>


“At alam niyo bang ako ang unang unang taong naging masaya nung nalaman kong kayo na? Walastik. Pero sa una natakot ako kasi baka ginagawa mo siyang panakip butas pero you proved me wrong.”


He was there when I was down kaya naman natutunan ko na siyang mahalin. Sino bang mag-aakala na magtatagal kami ng 5years, mas matagal sa naging relasyon natin.


“Pasensya na at na-interrupt ko moment niyo. Sige maiwan ko na muna kayo.”


<i>Angie, salamat ulit.</i>


“Walang anuman Gino.”


Nang tuluyan ng nakalayo si Angie ay bigla ka na namang nalungkot at naiiyak. Hinawakan ko ang pisngi mo. Tumingin ka sakin.


“Gino, hindi ko kayang mawala ka.” Bigla mong sabi. “Huwag mo naman gawin sa akin to. Nagmamakaawa ako.” At tuluyan ng bumuhos muli ang mga luha mo.


“Sabi mo walang iwanan pero bakit ikaw ang unang bumitaw? Napakadaya mo! Paano na mga pangarap natin?”


Sa totoo lang nahihirapan akong tingnan siya. Nagkamali ata talaga ako, pero anong magagawa ko. Sa ganito na nagtapos ang story nating dalawa.


“Pwede ko bang marinig or maramdaman man lang iyong pagmamahal mo sa akin kahit sa huling pagkakataon?” pakiusap mo sa akin ngunit hindi ako kumibo.


Alam kong nasaktan ka sa ginawa ko pero kailangan eh. Kailangan mo ng mag-move on. Kailangan mo na akong kalimutan. Kailangan mo nang mabuhay ng wala ako sa piling mo.


“Hindi ko kayang mawala ka. Please lang bumalik ka sa akin. Ipinapangako ko, gagawin ko ang lahat.” Patuloy mo pa ring sambit.


<i>Ginawa mo na ang lahat Riko pero hanggang dito na lang talaga. Hindi na kita masasamahan pa sa mga susunod na araw.</i>


Patuloy ka pa rin sa pagmamakaawa na balikan kita. Ilang beses na ring bumalik si Angie sa atin para lang patahanin ka pero ayaw mong papigil. Nasasaktan akong makitang nagkakaganyan ka pero nakapagdesisyon na ako. Ito na ang huling beses na magkikita tayo ng personal. Lalayo na ako para sa ikabubuti nating lahat.


Papasikat na ang araw ng muli kang balikan ni Angie.


“Riko, tama na. Kailangan na nating maghanda pareho. Maya-maya darating na ang iba pa nating mga kaibigan pati na mga kamag-anak ni Gino.”


“Sasama ako sa kanya.” Sagot mo habang nakatingin sa akin.


“Hindi pupwede. Kailangan mong mabuhay para sa sarili mo, para sa aming mga buhay pang nagmamahal sa’yo. Alam mo kung nandidito pa si Gino hinding hindi papayag iyon na nagkakaganyan ka.” Panenermon ni Angie sa’yo.


Napailing ka at napilitang tumayo.


Oo nga pala, ngayon na ang itinakdang araw ng libing ko. Hindi ko masisisi si Riko, nagmahal lang siya ng sobra ngunit iniwan ko siya. Sino bang mag-aakala na sa isang maliit na sugat lang sa paa ang magiging katapusan ng pagmamahalan namin.


Tumayo ako at lumapit sa’yo.


“Riko, mahal na mahal kita. Lagi mo sanang tatandaan iyan. Paalam.” Niyakap kita at hinagkan sa mga labi. Napapikit ka. Alam kong naramdaman mo iyon dahil napangiti ka.


Ngayon masaya na akong aalis bitbit ang ngiting iyon. <i>Paalam Riko. Paalam.</i>

Time and Laughters

I remember the days you looked at me as if I was your greatest hero.

I felt very proud.

But then… things changed.

It wasn’t always like this. We used to be happy. Spent most of our time together.

I remember…

I used to be the one that first greets you in the morning.

The one that waves “GoodBye” as you leave your home.

The one that waits for you paitently to come home.

The one that eagerly listens about your day.

The one that accompanies you at night.

The one that stands and watches over you until morning comes again.

But sadly, those days are over.

I just woke up one day and it was as if you have forgotten about me. Worst, you pretend not to see me while I know you do. It was painful for me. But still, I stayed by your side.

Things got worst, you now even deny my existence. You tell your friends that I wasn’t yours.  You even said that you were just being childish that’s why you stayed and kept me. I was hurt, but I still stayed by your side.

Years passed by and I was still by your side. Ive always been here. Waiting for you to come and see me again. I was sad, but I was patient, too.

One day, you came home with a baby in your hand.

I didn’t know how to feel. You looked very happy. So I felt that I needed to be happy for you.

I was watching you as you played with your baby. You really have changed. I don’t think you’ll ever notice me ever again.

But I was wrong.

One day as you carried your baby I saw you looking at me. I instantly felt excited.

“Hi there, old buddy.”, you smiled at me as you dusted me off.

You then took my hand as you introduced me to your precious.

“Baby, meet my greatest buddy, Teddy.”

I saw your baby smile at me.

I remember that smile many years ago. It was exactly like yours.

I wanted to cry but I couldn’t.

You placed me beside your little one and looked me in the eye as you sincerely said.

“Thank you for being a great pal. Now could you play with my kid like we used to?”

I saw you smile at me again. The one that I've waited all these years.

I don’t know how I did.

But I did it.

I was the first teddy bear who cried.

4 Minahal ni Bestfriend : Desperado part 2

             Kamusta po sa lahat? ^_^

             Una ay nais kong magpasalamat muli sa inyo sa mga waang sawang sumusuporta sa aking munting akda. Salamat din po sa paniniwala ninyo sa aking kakayanan. Sobra po itong nakakapagpa touch ng aking puso. ^_^

             Pangalawa, ay gusto ko humingi ng pabor. Hahaha! Pa follow naman po ng blog.. Heheheh. Sige na :P Hahaha!! And nga pala guys, you can add me up on fb pa din. We have a growing community sa fb and I hope ay i-add nyo ko ng mai-add ko din kayo sa ating group. We will be having events soon so sana sumali po kayo. :) Ito po ang link ng aking fb acct. :)  http://www.facebook.com/kenji.bem.oya PAKIUSAP lang po na magpakilala lang kayo upon adding para ma add ko na kayo agad sa group :) Thanks!! So.. ito na!!

              Pangatlo, ay gusto ko pasalamatan ang aking Bembem ko na laging andyan para sa akin all the way! Kay MIMI RAGE na syang gumawa ng cover, Kay Jojie,  at kay Erwin F. Syempre po kay --makki--,demure, ivan d., MaRIOnE, jemryo,mc ern james, Tommy,J, iamronald, cuirous19,youcancallmeJM, Roan,anton, kyle from clark, ANDY, robertmendoza94@yahoo.com, _rayne, Riley, Jeh (Thanks uli!), Rovi Yuno, j20green, Heaven, j.v, erion, price arl, Mark Jayson Pionela, Judaskyle13, JD Javra,Jasper, ZROM60, kapitanismo, Eiji_monster, =dereck=, Riley, Chris, Lei, arvie04,John Gino Basinang, Red of Singapore, Josue Altoveros, Nico, kean tongol, ryan lee, Anthon Gonzales, Edward, Christian, arljhay, hula_boy, 21, totix, erickvladd, calvin, PIP, J, -London-, Down D. Line, ,Mel Gibson, jrvr, vinz_uan, mon, Queckenstedt, kean tongol, Atsea, Bonzai, ryan lee, -rob-, IAN, JM MJ, Jay-Ar, robert, Ryvis Tan, vincent28, Jhumer Andres, shane, Nico, Bonzai, dhyames, wexersz_15, Ras, EUS, Iamrex, LordPauldemort, itsmethirdy, ryan lee, shane, Jhumer Andres, Hiya!, Jay-ar, renxz, pangz, jaymefrompalawan, Ryvis Tan, jamespott, Rez of Bacolod, Silent_al, ariel loniga, jheyjhey javier, maybe, g, patryckjr, Enrique, iRead,wil, jae.jae, RGEEE, Jim of Pangasinan, xheanne, eric sioson, Cloyd, LEI, Moon Sung-Min, meloh, _june_, JD Javra, d^,^b camotes \m/hunk, nam, itsmethirdy, =jess=, Marcanthony, knight_in_shining_armor(hehehe), nam, Danielle, alejojohn, _unspoken_words_, akosijames, Nicholadia, Enrique, lloydie, LemLem, Jayar, Nico, Unknown, Aldrin, , _alelojohn, Dada Marcelo, cris bautista, Malachimark, -erickboi-, Yoshi, Karl rickson, online via ginno, Nikko Ramos, toffer lopez, Prince Pao, ALex, ja, kris, ramzter, Jm_virgin2009, Marlone, edrich of cebu, Archivald, russ, Mars, foxriver, Burj of Abu Dhabi, maybe, pd, mykel22, ampugeh, mark5337, ALDRIN, Al, brenthotz18, toffer lopez, Prince Pao, MarcAnthony, - marcus -, Nikko Ramos, Rands of QC, harry, alex, .paisano, jay.19.bi, Pancookie, cris bautista, Bri, Alexis Gacayan, Paolo Escaba, tj, nikk, eric sioson, -rom-, shingha, Mr.handsome, Mac, nivz, MP of Pasig, ilyrars, erik, .lordsun pogie, Enzo12, Tnito Schrugs, aeigh27 of binan laguna, cris bautista, JC SHIN, marlboro, monty, cazlhers@yahoo.com, fixboy, jay Tagaro, kris, Keanu Reeves, Marky, -rom-, foxriver, diumar, P.Y.S.H, edrich of cebu, bon-bon, Gerald, dhenxo (UTOL!!), kira, Uri_KiDo, Arnold Lachica, iamfree, chadie, IgnorantengFrog, ericka, em_bie24, , arvin of Taiwan, nikk, A L P O, rain, shingha, pein_kyoya, Gian, Enzo12, MIMI RAGE, Brent Angelo, Lawfer, Levin, Ramm, razhly, luilao, kajiki_anton, Jerwin Caraang, slushe.love, Jamespott, pein_kyoya, monja, paul ni joseph ponce, iamdarkdreamer, trutsofme, 12334, Paopi Lopez, dyasper dyokson, Rj, Bequillo, jhexter vhon, Redrockerz, Jamespott, cheryllee, Kimpoy Feliciano, Yrec, Karl Ricson, kierlynez, jon888, archerangel, Cholo Sevilla, ramzter, cy, ian of k.s.a, krisluv, dro, allen mark, manuel, franklin alviola, sora cesar aloner, justine of QATAR, cap, vash18, ramy from qatar, hot_andrew_21, derek ramsey, Jm Fab, ARSTEVE, edward_cavite, g, jhayc, jaycee mejica, kiero143, MorLuck, Tagadxb, Charo Santos, Choy Sevilla, Chris Evans, PauuulFabian, Pao, Ayen, Lee, Toffer(charmedboy09), anita baker, -kiss-, lm_rix, jhay ar tabz, Saykz, hajji alivio, ryval winston, jaycee mejica, Leowenstein, nashdane, Manuel, Louis, Dylan of Jeddah, carlo lovendino, ireneomercado, LeonardCruzL@yahoo.com, johnjamesjohn, eelkahr, hormy, manila_sex_actor,DyEyD, carlo lovendino, Yhno, alphongx, zapfyre_01, -Dylan-, jumpin rooftops, Coffee Prince, KYLE DEXTER RIVERA, Dante Espinosa, Mon Tee, Lexin, PIP, akosichristian, rc, Vice Ganda, dylan of jeddah, Kierl Ynez, ireneomercado, MICO,  cef, Jordan Rey, -john el-, juanes, rascal, Acnologia, YUME, yahiko, =KierBurry=, Izteepen, -mans-, alfredo eufemio, twilightminds, gian, London, Francis Louigie Aviso, jii, LeonardCruzL@yahoo.com, Vintoy122092,  at kay Kuya Mike. At syempre sa mga anonymous at silent readers po. :) At syempre po sa mga friends natin sa fb.


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The Shed

There is no other way to do this…

“I love you”, you said.

I smiled as I read your text message.

But then that smile immediately turned upside down.

I walked home as I thought about how I was hurting you. It wasn’t fair. I didn’t want this to happen.

I first met you by the road. It was a very usual day. I was by a shed waiting for my ride when I noticed you looking at me. I just gave you a nod and smiled a little.

“Hi.”, you said.

I was shocked when you approached me. I thought you were some lunatic that would mug me.

But still.. I said, “Hey.”

You released a gentle smile.

I can’t exactly remember how things went after that. I just soon found myself enjoying your company. You were smart and funny. And very jolly I must say.

We were good friends until that very day you told me about how you feel.

You were falling for me.

I appreciated. But then felt sad.

You were very patient though I know I am hurting you in ways I know, are intentional on my side. I wasn’t fair.

But still, you tried to pursue me.

My conscience is eating me up. I couldn’t do this. You know me. I know you.

You’re the kind of guy who is afraid of commitments. A guy who doesn’t want strings attached with. I understood. You were my friend after all.

But me? How come you can’t understand? I can’t be the guy for you. I never will. Please understand.

“I love you.” – this were the words I don’t want coming from you. Please don’t. I want you as a friend. And I want it to stay that way.

Still, you loved me.

And now, we’re sitting inside a cafe. I can see tears falling from your eyes. It was my own doing. I don’t want to see you like this. But, I have to. This isn’t fair. Not to you.

I told you not to love me.

You deserve someone better. Not me.

I handed you my handkerchief as I again explained why we can’t be together.

I gave a deep sigh.

You cried again.

I couldn’t stand it any longer.

I stood up and gave you a firm hug and I whispered something that made you cry even harder.

I gave you a kiss on the cheeks and left.

I cried the heaviest tears as I left the café. It was excruciatingly painful. I never wanted to hurt someone. Not you, not anyone.

But I had to tell you those words. I know it was intentional.

And I’m sorry. I’m sorry if I hurt you.

I soon reached my house and quickly turned the knob.

There I saw him. The reason why I intentionally hurt you.

I gave him a bright smile as I felt contentment as I looked into his eyes.

I know I made the only decision that ever was.

I rushed to him and gave him a tight hug as I remembered the words I said to you.

“I love him too much to hurt him… I’m sorry… All I can ever be is be a friend to you…”

4 Minahal ni Bestfriend : Desperado part 1

            Kamusta po sa inyong lahat?! ^_^

            Unang una ay gusto ko muling magpasalamat sa mga sumumbaybay sa first 3 books ng MNB. At ngayon, hayaan ninyo akong i-wecome kayo sa bagong yugto ng aking "Minahal ni Bestfriend" series.

            Pero bago ang welcome ay may favor muna ako. Hahaha! Pa follow naman po ng blog.. Heheheh. Sige na :P Hahaha!! And nga pala guys, you can add me up on fb pa din. We have a growing community sa fb and I hope ay i-add nyo ko ng mai-add ko din kayo sa ating group. We will be having events soon so sana sumali po kayo. :) Ito po ang link ng aking fb acct. :)  http://www.facebook.com/kenji.bem.oya PAKIUSAP lang po na magpakilala lang kayo upon adding para ma add ko na kayo agad sa group :) Thanks!! So.. ito na!!

             WELCOME!!! ^_^

             Ayan, since na welcome na kayo, ay patuloy na ng opening remarks ko.. Ang series na ito ay magkakaroon ng malaking pagbabago. Magkakaroon ako ng mga kaunting mature scenes. Kung ano man yun, ay kayo na lang po muna ang umalam.

             At dahil dyan ay gusto ko pasalamatan ang aking Bembem ko na laging andyan para sa akin all the way! Kay MIMI RAGE na syang gumawa ng cover, Kay Jojie, Zeke, at kay Erwin F. Syempre po kay --makki--,demure, ivan d., MaRIOnE, jemryo,mc ern james, Tommy,J, iamronald, cuirous19,youcancallmeJM, Roan,anton, kyle from clark, ANDY, robertmendoza94@yahoo.com, _rayne, Riley, Jeh (Thanks uli!), Rovi Yuno, j20green, Heaven, j.v, erion, price arl, Mark Jayson Pionela, Judaskyle13, JD Javra,Jasper, ZROM60, kapitanismo, Eiji_monster, =dereck=, Riley, Chris, Lei, arvie04,John Gino Basinang, Red of Singapore, Josue Altoveros, Nico, kean tongol, ryan lee, Anthon Gonzales, Edward, Christian, arljhay, hula_boy, 21, totix, erickvladd, calvin, PIP, J, -London-, Down D. Line, ,Mel Gibson, jrvr, vinz_uan, mon, Queckenstedt, kean tongol, Atsea, Bonzai, ryan lee, -rob-, IAN, JM MJ, Jay-Ar, robert, Ryvis Tan, vincent28, Jhumer Andres, shane, Nico, Bonzai, dhyames, wexersz_15, Ras, EUS, Iamrex, LordPauldemort, itsmethirdy, ryan lee, shane, Jhumer Andres, Hiya!, Jay-ar, renxz, pangz, jaymefrompalawan, Ryvis Tan, jamespott, Rez of Bacolod, Silent_al, ariel loniga, jheyjhey javier, maybe, g, patryckjr, Enrique, iRead,wil, jae.jae, RGEEE, Jim of Pangasinan, xheanne, eric sioson, Cloyd, LEI, Moon Sung-Min, meloh, _june_, JD Javra, d^,^b camotes \m/hunk, nam, itsmethirdy, =jess=, Marcanthony, knight_in_shining_armor(hehehe), nam, Danielle, alejojohn, _unspoken_words_, akosijames, Nicholadia, Enrique, lloydie, LemLem, Jayar, Nico, Unknown, Aldrin, , _alelojohn, Dada Marcelo, cris bautista, Malachimark, -erickboi-, Yoshi, Karl rickson, online via ginno, Nikko Ramos, toffer lopez, Prince Pao, ALex, ja, kris, ramzter, Jm_virgin2009, Marlone, edrich of cebu, Archivald, russ, Mars, foxriver, Burj of Abu Dhabi, maybe, pd, mykel22, ampugeh, mark5337, ALDRIN, Al, brenthotz18, toffer lopez, Prince Pao, MarcAnthony, - marcus -, Nikko Ramos, Rands of QC, harry, alex, .paisano, jay.19.bi, Pancookie, cris bautista, Bri, Alexis Gacayan, Paolo Escaba, tj, nikk, eric sioson, -rom-, shingha, Mr.handsome, Mac, nivz, MP of Pasig, ilyrars, erik, .lordsun pogie, Enzo12, Tnito Schrugs, aeigh27 of binan laguna, cris bautista, JC SHIN, marlboro, monty, cazlhers@yahoo.com, fixboy, jay Tagaro, kris, Keanu Reeves, Marky, -rom-, foxriver, diumar, P.Y.S.H, edrich of cebu, bon-bon, Gerald, dhenxo (UTOL!!), kira, Uri_KiDo, Arnold Lachica, iamfree, chadie, IgnorantengFrog, ericka, em_bie24, , arvin of Taiwan, nikk, A L P O, rain, shingha, pein_kyoya, Gian, Enzo12, MIMI RAGE, Brent Angelo, Lawfer, Levin, Ramm, razhly, luilao, kajiki_anton, Jerwin Caraang, slushe.love, Jamespott, pein_kyoya, monja, paul ni joseph ponce, iamdarkdreamer, trutsofme, 12334, Paopi Lopez, dyasper dyokson, Rj, Bequillo, jhexter vhon, Redrockerz, Jamespott, cheryllee, Kimpoy Feliciano, Yrec, Karl Ricson, kierlynez, jon888, archerangel, Cholo Sevilla, ramzter, cy, ian of k.s.a, krisluv, dro, allen mark, manuel, franklin alviola, sora cesar aloner, justine of QATAR, cap, vash18, ramy from qatar, hot_andrew_21, derek ramsey, Jm Fab, ARSTEVE, edward_cavite, g, jhayc, jaycee mejica, kiero143, MorLuck, Tagadxb, Charo Santos, Choy Sevilla, Chris Evans, PauuulFabian, Pao, Ayen, Lee, Toffer(charmedboy09), anita baker, -kiss-, lm_rix, jhay ar tabz, Saykz, hajji alivio, ryval winston, jaycee mejica, Leowenstein, nashdane, Manuel, Louis, Dylan of Jeddah, carlo lovendino, ireneomercado, LeonardCruzL@yahoo.com, johnjamesjohn, eelkahr, hormy, manila_sex_actor,DyEyD, carlo lovendino, Yhno, alphongx, zapfyre_01, -Dylan-, jumpin rooftops, Coffee Prince, KYLE DEXTER RIVERA, Dante Espinosa, Mon Tee, Lexin, PIP, akosichristian, rc, Vice Ganda, dylan of jeddah, Kierl Ynez, ireneomercado, MICO,  cef, Jordan Rey, -john el-, juanes, rascal, Acnologia, YUME, yahiko, =KierBurry=, Izteepen, -mans-, alfredo eufemio, twilightminds, gian, London, Francis Louigie Aviso, jii, LeonardCruzL@yahoo.com,  at kay Kuya Mike. At syempre sa mga anonymous at silent readers po. :) At syempre po sa mga friends natin sa fb.   


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